True Test

I said sometime within the last month, "Things are going so well in my life, I'm afraid because that means something horrible is about to happen." LOL! It sounds pessimistic, but in my eyes, it was just realistic.

And something very bad did happen, I was right. Something so bad, it tried its very best to overshadow absolutely every single blessing God has given me. It tried, but I guarantee you, it did not succeed.

Yes, I've been crying. Yes, I've been severely depressed. Yes, I have had some horrible thoughts. Yes, I am literally struggling every moment not to break down when I'm out in public. Yes, getting out of bed has been a struggle on it's own. BUT. . . I never one single time asked, "Why me?" Also, I didn't ask God to take it away, either. Here is why:

"Be sure We shall test you with something of fear and hunger, some loss in goods, lives and the fruits (of your toil), but give glad tidings to those who patiently persevere.

Who say: when afflicted with calamity: "To Allah we belong and to Him is our return."

Al-Baqara - 2:155-156

"Or do ye think that ye shall enter the Garden (of Bliss) without such (trials) as came to those who passed away before you? They encountered suffering and adversity and were so shaken in spirit that even the Messenger and those of faith who were with him cried: "When (will come) the help of Allah?" Ah! verily the help of Allah is (always) near!"

Al-Baqara - 2:214

"And the messengers whom We sent before thee were all (men) who ate food and walked through the streets: We have made some of you as a trial for others: will ye have patience? For Allah is One Who sees (all things)."

Al-Furqan - 25:20

"Do men think that they will be left alone on saying "We believe" and that they will not be tested?

We did test those before them, and Allah will certainly know those who are true from those who are false."

Al-Ankaboot - 29:2-3

The simple fact that I have been tested so severely is a blessing on it's own. The fact that my faith is strong enough for God to believe in and test is something that is beautiful to me.

"On no soul doth Allah Place a burden greater than it can bear."

Al-Baqara - 2:286

I have been praying for God to help me get through this test, and I know that help is continuously coming.  He is the absolute Greatest of all and there is nothing I would change about my life in any way. I just pray and ask that God continue to guide me through this test and help me come out as a better person from this. My real struggle will be to use this test to my advantage and use it to improve who I am. I am endlessly grateful to God for every single blessing and I feel even more grateful now that I'm going through this struggle.

ALHAMDULILLAH EVERY SINGLE MOMENT OF EVERY SINGLE DAY OF LIFE AND BEYOND.